Tag: Shadow Work
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Day 12: Cold Water Therapy
So cold water just isn’t as difficult to expose yourself to after you’ve been outside working in the yard. On the other hand, I did find my faucet will go colder – so I guess I’ve been cheating myself in the mornings I get up – yeah I slept in this morning and then I…
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Day 5: Cold Water Therapy
This morning started off as a bit of a shit-show. My poor wife had been up all night with food poisoning – and I was supposed to go south all day to do some training at a martial arts seminar. But I knew I couldn’t leave her alone to take care of our son in…
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Day 9: Embracing Warriorship
I must be getting close to some genuine gold here. I’m having the hardest time wanting to continue this process. I’m reflecting on life and for a long time, I’ve liked the idea of become a life coach. I remember being inspired by my first Karate instructor. I can pretty much trace the trajectory of…
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Day 2: Embracing Warriorship
I got home from teaching last night and was too tired to write this by the time I could have. It’s what I get for “slacking off” and letting myself have some extra time to sleep after weights followed by some intense cardio. I didn’t get my professional reading done yesterday, but I did get…
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Finding Brandon
I woke up this morning with a strange feeling. I started thinking on my 30 day challenges and why I decided to reboot, more so why I kept sabotaging myself. Especially after I’ve had so many successes already. Then in a flash of half-dreaming inspiration I had a picture of my self-image as a gangly,…
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Day 19: Shaping Discipline
I got up late this morning – well comparatively anyway. I jumped in the shower at 5:11 and was out of the bathroom by 5:31. I did end up taking a mostly cold shower to make sure my wife had hot water. I’m thinking it’s going to become something regular. I had to cut a…
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Day 14: Shaping Discipline
I’m wondering if I’m getting enough sleep – I keep waking up before my alarm – like 10 or 20 minutes. Generally that means I got in bed early enough the night before. I’m probably worrying over crap I shouldn’t be – just wondering why I’m fighting something else now that I just got over…
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Day 14: Starting Off Winning
This morning was rough, but I got everything done – I even made myself sit through my entire meditation time instead of letting myself off easy. Yeah it’s a wrestling match with my mind trying to focus on a single thing for even 10 minutes – today I simply focused on my breathing – in…
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Day 13: Starting Off Winning
It’s been interesting noticing how much of my internal thought patterns are from my inner two year-old worrying about things. When I notice anxiety now, I talk to myself and I figure out if it’s coming from my shadow pattern or if there’s something else going on. So far it’s always been my shadow –…