Author: Brandon
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Day 20: Starting Off Winning
Still sick, so I don’t know that this counts as “starting off” winning. But I’m still doing what I can and I did manage to get some work done today, while my son was also home not feeling good. Both of us ended up taking a nap, but I woke up before he did and…
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Day 19: Starting Off Winning
I’m still sick, thought I was starting to feel a bit better until this afternoon, and then got worried when the Mrs. said her throat is hurting. So I got a strep test and it came back negative – but given that it’s within the first 48 hours of symptoms, the false negative rate is…
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Day 18: Starting Off Winning
Woke up about 3:00am feeling like a cold was coming on – I turned off my alarm because it’s Saturday anyway. Then went back to sleep. I wrestled a lot with sleep, finally got out of bed around 8:00am feeling like crap. Yep full blown cold (or maybe strep – my throat has been getting…
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Day 17: Starting Off Winning
Knowing is only “half the battle” – doing is the other half (or extreme violence in the case of G.I. Joe). I laid in bed this morning after my alarm went off, and started telling myself that I need to get up. But that only seemed to slow me down and make me want to…
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Day 16: Starting Off Winning
It was a bit rough getting out of bed this morning, I was actually arguing with myself – or I should say I was telling myself I needed to get out of bed, but didn’t for about 20 minutes. Once I got into the shower it got easier to make myself do things, but I…
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Day 15: Starting Off Winning
Starting off week number three! My meditation was a lot easier this morning, my mind was still wandering, but I didn’t struggle as much to bring it back to center. I have been processing anger toward other people – trying to understand where it comes from. Generally my anger seems to come from something I…
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Day 14: Starting Off Winning
This morning was rough, but I got everything done – I even made myself sit through my entire meditation time instead of letting myself off easy. Yeah it’s a wrestling match with my mind trying to focus on a single thing for even 10 minutes – today I simply focused on my breathing – in…
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Day 13: Starting Off Winning
It’s been interesting noticing how much of my internal thought patterns are from my inner two year-old worrying about things. When I notice anxiety now, I talk to myself and I figure out if it’s coming from my shadow pattern or if there’s something else going on. So far it’s always been my shadow –…
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Day 12: Starting Off Winning
I took my mom out some flowers as a token of apology and then gave an apology to both her and my dad. I’m exhausted now, but I feel much lighter and I feel like I had the first real conversation with my parents in years. It was nice seeing the immense amount of pride…