Escaping Tartarus

Category: Journal Entry

  • Day 6: Starting Off Winning

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    I actually got out of bed by 4:45 this morning, I was surprised because I was awake before my alarm went off, I actually ended up laying in bed (amazing how fast 15 minutes goes by when you just want to lay in bed) then got up. I’ve started doing lukewarm showers instead of hot…

  • Day 5: Starting Off Winning

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    Here we are day 5 and the novelty has definitely worn off – now comes discipline. This is exactly why I’ve set aside thoughts of what to add next. My current goal is to work through this routine for 30 days. Although I still haven’t gotten out of bed at 4:30 or 4:45 am yet…

  • Day 4: Starting Off Winning

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    Thinking is easy, it’s the doing that’s hard – it’s the doing others admire. If things like weight loss or building muscle were easy, everyone would do it. People want the respect of being something, but they don’t want to go through the hard part of actually doing it. This morning I let myself sleep…

  • Day 3: Starting Off Winning

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    Still not a perfect day, I got out of bed even later than yesterday – which ended up de-railing me for a bit after my son woke up and came into my office. But seeing my son’s little squinty face as he walks in and his eyes are adjusting to the light is one of…

  • Day 2: Starting Off Winning

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    Here I am at day 2, I didn’t get out of bed on time – but I did get out of bed earlier than yesterday (5am instead of 5:20) so that’s a win. Yesterday I was half-awake most of the day, probably due to lack of sleep the night before. 9pm hit and I had…

  • Starting the Day Off Winning

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    The older I get, the less I’m a fan of New Year’s Resolutions – I love goals, but to wait until the new year to start something just seems stupid to me. Waiting for something like the new year to come around before making changes you know you want/need to make in life seems like…

  • Taking Ownership

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    Why am I doing this? And by “this” I mean discovering, wrestling with, making friends with, and/or banishing my inner demons – followed by, of course, documenting the process? The biggest reason is that I have a son, and I’ll be damned if my son is going to inherit my demons because I wasn’t man…

  • Meeting My Shadow

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    For a very long time I’ve had a dark side – my shadow, it comes out when I’m exhausted from trying to please and take care of everyone around me. My shadow is full of resentment and anger. Anger toward who, toward what? Figuring out the targets of my shadow’s anger is the hard part…